Please choose Forgiveness
For years, my personal mantra was “Throughout all of time, I forgive myself and others for pain that was caused both intentionally and unintentionally.”
Even now, when I am angry or holding a grudge, or have hurt feelings because of words spoken to me, or some injustice has occurred, I must remember my mantra and the importance of forgiveness.
When I notice my inner language is degrading myself for a mistake I’ve made and my inner thoughts are going over and over again my stupidity, my carelessness in the words I chose, the idiocy of my actions, I have to remember forgiveness. I must remember I was doing the best I could with where I was in the moment. Forgiving myself is the hardest thing to do and the most important.
During a past life meditation, I found myself as a young woman reputed by the village I lived in, shamed by those I loved and not worthy of living among them. I was stripped, whipped and left for dead in the wilderness for nothing other than being who I was. I know this happened because I have suffered horrendous, painful inner sadness and depression for most of my life. When I came out of this meditation, I knew I had to forgive the people who, out of their own ignorance, did that to me and thus forgiveness throughout all time and space became my mantra. I do not know who those people were, what time nor place it was nor the circumstances. I only know I need to forgive them and what happened.
I have forgiven, and now my heart is lighter, my lifetime of emotional pain and depression have dispersed.
The anger, emotional pain, and inner turmoil that I experienced most of my life was rooted in my own inner thought language. I was not angry or hurt for the reasons I thought I was. Often, the actions of someone else that caused me pain had nothing to do with me. Their actions were all about them.
As humans, we take so much personally and it’s not about us at all. Now that I have learned to take very little personally, I walk with a lighter step. My inner self feels little pain. I can awake with love, compassion, happiness, and joy in my heart.
It hasn’t been easy for me to forgive (and still is not easy) all that has happened to me throughout all time and space and in this lifetime. I can’t imagine it would easy for anyone to forgive all the pain filled life circumstances that have happened throughout the millennia of our lives. Yet, it’s what all humans must do because until you have and live with true forgiveness in your heart, you cannot know nor experience the true Infinite Love that is All.
Infinite Love is all that matters. The rest is just all about being human.
Please choose forgiveness. And please choose Love.